For Lady Jeanne

The Lady Jeanne on The Lady Jeanne
The Lady Jeanne on The Lady Jeanne in Maine

We’d all been expecting the call when it came in mid-June. The Lady Jeanne, my grandmother, had not been well since Mother’s Day, and the doctors had expected Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. Jeanne knew on the day of the diagnosis  that she would go home, say goodbye to everyone she loved, and go to sleep for the last time. She was 83 years old and she didn’t have a bucket list, she said. She’d done everything she’d set out in life to do.

There’s never a time, when I’m bicycling down Peconic Bay Boulevard from Mattituck to Aquebogue, retracing the route of my youth, that I don’t stop along the South Jamesport stretch that backs up to the canal where Lady Jeanne Merkel raised her nine children and taught them all to love the water on a succession of nine motorboats. My Grandpa Joe, devoted to Lady Jeanne’s every dream, had named each boat after her. Down Morningside Avenue, I can still hear the sounds of the Merkel clan, marching arm-in-arm down the street on the way to another adventure — building forts in the farm fields, burying each other in the sand at the South Jamesport Beach, hitching a ride into Riverhead for an ice cream soda at Papa Nick’s.

On the frozen Jamesport Canal in 1965.
On the frozen Jamesport canal in 1965.

Lady Jeanne came from a long line of pioneer women — French Canadians, some Abanaki Indians, with tough dispositions, accustomed to the cold, accustomed to hunger and accustomed to making their own path in the world. Not long before she died, my mother and I drove with her to the Abanaki Indian Reservation, at the junction of the Saint Lawrence and Saint Maurice rivers, just across the Saint Lawrence from Trois-Riviéres. It was Canada Day and we all celebrated Canada. Lady Jeanne danced her heart out for her ancestral tribal land.

Afterward, we wandered through the deserted streets of her family’s hometown of Sorel, looked out at the river, marveled that there seemed to be more churches than people in this hard-luck ghost town. It was a lonely place, but we all felt, somehow, that had circumstances been different we would have made a go of it there.

There’s something about my family’s spirit that draws them to the far east end of places, big-sea country. The farm fields and bay swells of Eastern Long Island suited Lady Jeanne just fine for years. She raised her family here. She kicked cancer’s butt in 1966, when she was 35 years old, with nine young children in her house. Grandpa Joe, who’d been an Navy medic who helped bandage up the soldiers coming home from World War II, took out her mastectomy stitches himself, holding his wife in his arms, weeping and contemplating the nearness of this life’s end.

Lady Jeanne opened up the Pine Tree Day Nursery on Roanoke Avenue that year, vowing her children would inherit a business if she got sick again. She didn’t.

By the early ’80s, Lady Jeanne had taken all the sustenance she could from the nursery that is the Peconic Bays. She was still dreaming of big sea country. Grandpa Joe took her up to Mount Desert Island, in Maine, where they started a campground and built a boat for their retirement years. All the Long Island Merkels would pile into campers and pickup trucks with caps on the beds and trek up to see them each summer.

At one point, I might have been only four, all the Merkels were by the seawall where the harbor in the center of Mount Desert Island spills out into the open ocean. It was dusk and I was one of the lucky ones to pile into a small dinghy with my uncles and my grandfather and head out to check the five lobster traps my grandfather kept in the harbor. I kept one eye always on the fires on shore, knowing the warmth of home was not far from the cold of the sea.

By the time I made my last trek up to Maine in June to say goodbye to Lady Jeanne’s memory, she’d moved so far up the coast that the folks at her funeral in Winter Harbor

Lady Jeanne
Lady Jeanne

called Downeast Maine the “southwest.” Her last years, after Grandpa Joe’s death, were spent among the desolate blueberry barrens and the craggy, lonely shores. But somehow, these places were not lonely places to her. By the time she was done with this world, she was known from the beaches of Great Guana Cay in the Bahamas to the cold port of Winter Harbor as “Dancing Jeanne.”

There’s something about having faced adversity and succeeded that makes every one of your laughs more real, every smile more genuine, every dance step a gesture of thanks for the short amount of time we have to walk on this earth.

“Enjoy every day of your life,” were the last words she said to me before she fell asleep that last time. I don’t know how to live up to her request, but, god willing, I still have the time to figure out how.

 

Beth Young

Beth Young has been covering the East End since the 1990s. In her spare time, she runs around the block, tinkers with bicycles, tries not to drown in the Peconic Bay and hopes to grow the perfect tomato. You can send her a message at editor@eastendbeacon.com

11 thoughts on “For Lady Jeanne

  • July 30, 2013 at 10:01 am
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    A wonderful loving tribute to a great woman.

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  • July 30, 2013 at 2:30 pm
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    Beth this is such a beautiful story..Your Grandmothers life sounded amazing.
    How lucky for you to of had her in your life.You will live up to her request because she is apart of you…she has instilled in you the love of life and to love what life has given you…take it and run with it Beth it’s all yours to embrace as she had embraced hers…

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  • August 3, 2013 at 8:56 am
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    This is the most beautiful appreciation I have ever read. Yes enjoy every day of your life to the fullest!!!!!!
    Maybe a book about the Merkels and the Abanaki Indians- I never heard of them.

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  • August 3, 2013 at 9:36 am
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    Hi BE,
    To learn more about the Abanaki’s and the the horrible atrocity committed against them during the French & Indian War read the book “White Devil”. Despite the title it’s a very scholarly study of the time in the NE where hate and revenge prevailed and the social economic reasons behind the violence.

    Nevertheless, Yes what Beth wrote is one of the most beautiful tributes I have read.
    Yours, Rick- part blood LENAPE”

    The process of fine adjustment and of endless experimentation over long periods of time is called evolution, the result of changes too sudden for nature to provide for is called extinction.” Roger Caras

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  • August 3, 2013 at 10:19 am
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    Great job on this story of an incredible woman. Thanks for the inspiration!

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  • August 4, 2013 at 6:40 am
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    This is so beautiful. What a lovely tribute that made me feel I knew her and certainly wish I had. But her spirit is within you and your mom.
    Great piece of writing, Beth.
    Warmest wishes,
    Julie

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  • August 4, 2013 at 11:10 am
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    Beth – thank you for your exquisitely beautiful capturing of mom’s life and her impact on her family. And Thank you Laurie Downs for encouraging Beth with words that make her mother’s heart sing – Yes embrace your beautiful life Beth – you make us all proud to know you.

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  • August 4, 2013 at 6:15 pm
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    Ditto all above comments – it doesn’t get much better than this, Beth. A beautiful and loving tribute!

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  • August 6, 2013 at 6:39 am
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    Beth, this is a beautiful essay about a remarkable woman. Thanks for sharing this with us.

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  • August 10, 2013 at 10:18 pm
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    Dearest Beth,

    what a right-on tribute to my mama. I miss her a lot these days and reading this bright a smile to my face and tear to the eye – and also called me to the task at hand — enjoying every day of my life… your rock Beth…

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